An Infection

Pugs is still here although no one has donated to her treatment. An awful infection around her eye is being treated with Black Salve, but the wound looks horrible. Deb still insists that she wants Pugs cremated and I have checked several services in the area for the best price, but until we come up with the money Pugs will have to suffer through. She is being loved on and cuddled with every day. Pain medication helps the pain, and she is still loosing weight despite the fact she is eating. Only god knows her fate!

Goodbye

Pugs Yelped today, so I gave her the last of the pain medication. I am not sure how I will be able to manage her pain tomorrow. The sore around her eye is getting worse; the pain is almost unbearable for her, and she really doesn't deserve to suffer anymore. Deb isn't able to let her go, so once again I have to step up and call the pound. It breaks my heart knowing that I'll have to go through this alone, to live without my best friend, but no one donated, no one cares.

We have sold almost everything and all we have left is our mini fridge, freezer, washer and dryer, and lawnmower, but they will be sold in time as well. The bills took all our money, so there is nothing for food again this month. As soon as the freezer is completely empty, in about a few days, that will be sold. There is no point in having it if there is no food! Next month will be the washer and dryer, so if anyone wants it just send me an e-mail and we will work out the details. It is only 1 year old and still under warranty!

I am so tired of trying and if I knew someone who wanted my house I would gladly leave and let them move in and take over the payments. I know that my life long dream was to own my own home, but it is time to throw that dream away as well; the hell with it. We have never had good times in this place, never had a nice holiday, or weekend here, so why not let a family move into it and create special memories?

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GOODBYE!